Well, I did it! I quit my job! My last day was on Saturday and I turned in all my stuff today. It feels bittersweet because I had a love/hate relationship with my job, but in the end, I know we are making the right decision and I couldn't be more excited! I took Austin with me to the office to say goodbye to everyone and it felt a little awkward. I felt like I was betraying them by quitting and for some reason I just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible. I even forgot to ask about my last paycheck and had to turn around and go back!
Austin fell asleep in the car on the ride home which was nice because it gave me a chance to think. Basically what I came up with is this is going to be a big transition and I can't expect to feel 100% sure about anything right now. I just need to practice some faith and trust God as he leads us along this new road. A part of me feels sad that I am not going to be practicing nursing for a while because it is something that gives me purpose and it is something that I am good at and take pride in. I just don't want to feel like I am now insignificant and have nothing to show for all my hard work. I know that sounds terrible, but it is something I've been thinking about a lot.
Once we got home, I carried sleeping Austin up to his crib and then proceeded to put away all my nursing stuff.... uniforms, stethoscope, supplies I carried around with me to every hospital.... and then I got to working on my new life! I made a gym calendar to keep us motivated on staying fit, and I printed off a meal plan calendar for all the cooking I am now going to do! And with that sparked a light of excitement.
I am not going to be some ordinary house wife. No, I am going to be extraordinary!
I'm sure my children will take advantage of all the hard work I will be doing, just like I took advantage of my own mother. But in the end, I will die knowing that I put aside my pride and did my best to raise those children in the best environment I could possibly make for them.
This isn't the end of my life as a nurse. I have many options I've been looking into for when my children grow up and I find myself with more spare time. This is just a little time out for Ashly-RN so that Ashly-Stay-at-Home MOM can take her full form!
Tonight is Monday night which means I will actually be home for family home evening! Time to get working on some treats and a lesson :).
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| Last day of work! Goodbye Nurse Ashly! |
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| First day at home! Hello Momma Ashly! |
I was worried when I quit too... and I thought that I would miss it so much... I mean who doesnt love holding sweet fresh from heaven babies?? But I can honestly say that I do NOT miss it at ALL... Sometimes I get stuck in a rut of feeling like my life now is all dishes and laundry and cleaning, but I wouldnt change it for any amount of money.. I love being home to watch B play, learn and grow.. and those are things that once theyre gone theyre gone and there is no getting them back... Love your little one and know that there is always the rest of your life to work... And... all that knowledge you gained in nursing school will still be put to good use in raising your own family and keeping yourself healthy and disease free!!!
ReplyDeleteThat's very true! I'm glad you're doing well and are happy :). I'm excited for you and this next big adventure you have coming up ;)
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