Irony

Why is life so ironic? Why can't we have what we want, when we want it?

Why is it that when you need a job, you can't find one. Then once you decide to quit your job, everyone wants you!!

It hasn't even been a month since I quit and I have already had two different Nurse Managers call me, wanting me to run their clinics.

I can't say it wasn't tempting and that's the ironic part! I wanted so badly to quit my job and stay at home with my baby, and then once I got it, I suddenly felt tempted to go back to work again! You could say I am having a little identity crisis at the moment. It doesn't help that the Managers who called sat on the phone for 45 minutes raving about how I was the best  nurse this company has ever had and how they will do anything to get me to come back and work for them again. You could say my peacock feathers got pretty ruffled and I was loving all the gratification that for some reason never came around when I was actually working there! Grrrrr...... irony.

So yes, I thought about it. I thought about the money, the excitement, the titles, the power. All of which I have been missing lately. Josh even "upped the ante" by telling me there is a condo in Lake Las Vegas he wants to buy for us to vacation to whenever we want and even gave me a very generous spending allowance for any shopping I might feel like doing at any time. Can you guess which side of the fence he's on?

Tempting.... oh so tempting! 

But then I spent the day with my son and kept remembering all the reasons why I quit. He is growing so fast and won't be a baby for long. I have to keep in mind that my days as a nurse aren't over, they're just put on hold. I worked so hard to get to this point in my life and I can't be taking it for granted. 

It's not easy staying at home. Let's be honest, it can get pretty boring when the only person you have to talk to all day long is an eight month old who repeats himself over and over with the same two syllable words. I am trying to learn how to slow down and not crave the fast pace of my former life. 

Ironically that's what I hated most about my former life when I was in it! Confused much? Yeah, me too. I called the Managers this morning and turned down the jobs. No condo in paradise for us just yet. Right now it is time to slow down and focus on family.