My Early Birthday Surprise!!!

I'm shocked.    I'm in awe.    I'm excited beyond imagine!!!

 

Yup, that's why I married him! He's always surprising me and affirming that I truly married Prince Charming :).

 

I worked (and by worked, I mean worked my butt off doing overtime) clear up to the day before I went into the hospital to have Austin, and then after 8 short weeks of maternity leave, it was back to the grind for me!

 

It has killed me having to leave my baby. Although he is a handful at times, I crave his sweet smile and it makes my heart leap whenever I hear him giggle.

 

I have wanted so badly to be a stay at home Mom. I can't imagine anything better than getting to see my baby every day while taking care of my home and husband. It's so hard when you are exhausted from work and all you want to do is crawl into a hole and sleep. Don't get me wrong, I love nursing and I have enjoyed my job. But I haven't felt that fulfilling feeling that I am where I need to be at this point in life.

 

However, we live in a modern world where most women are the bread winners and the home and family have been put on the back burner. With both parents working, who has the time to focus on important things like family dinners and the emotional development of our children? Perhaps that's why we have so many crazy/disturbed people running around shooting children. It's so sad. Note: I am not judging those who have no choice but to work in order to provide for their families. I was raised by a single Mom so I understand that world. Please don't be offended if that is your situation. As for my situation, we have forgotten what's important and our priorities were perhaps focused on all the wrong things. Josh and I have talked about this for a while now and it always comes down to: are we willing to give up the wonderful life that having lots of money provides? For a while we both decided, No. Money is nice.... okay, let's get serious.... money is great! I have LOVED all my shopping sprees, Starbucks Lattes, eating out at restaurants, investing in the stock market, and paying off our second car because we are both weirdo's and absolutely hate debt.

 

Nevertheless, money doesn't buy happiness.

 

No amount of cute clothes can make up for the fact that I miss my baby. Not even owning the titles to ten cars could take away the feeling that I'm not giving my husband enough.

 

It has been a struggle.

 

And then Prince Charming gave me the surprise of a lifetime! He told me to turn in my two weeks notice because his birthday present to me this year is to quit my job and be a stay at home mom!

 

 

Oh how I love that man!

 

It has been stressful figuring out private insurance and planning out a budget for this new life we are about to embark on, but we couldn't be happier! I am so excited to finally be the wife and mother I haven't had the time or energy to be! 14 is my lucky number, and so far in 2014, I'm feeling like the luckiest girl in the world :).