Waiting and Day-Dreaming

Waiting. It's the hardest thing for me to do. I find myself always getting frustrated with life because I don't want to wait anymore! So in the midst of this frustration, I day-dream...

What is it I day-dream about? 

It's funny because my dreams haven't changed much since I was a little girl. I used to come home from school and sit on our front porch swing (when we lived in Utah) and spend hours swinging back and forth, while day-dreaming about my future and what it might hold for me. Of course there was always the handsome man with the great career and the beautiful house full of beautiful children. And in my dreams I was always happy. 

Today, I'm dreaming about our house. 

-I want so badly to have our own home again! 

-I want to cook and bake whenever the mood strikes me without having to ask permission, or ask where things are. 

-I want to "nest" and put together our little boys room so that it will feel more real that he is actually going to be here soon. 

-I want to have access to the internet again without having to go to the library, or use my cell phone. 

-I want to have privacy and not have to tell people where I am going all the time and when I will be home.

-I want to have control over the TV so I can watch what interests me, and not have to worry about it being interesting to other people. 

-I want to be able to practice yoga in my living room without someone watching me and laughing at how ridiculous some of the poses are.

-Basically, I just want a place I can call my own, so I can be myself. 

***The projected completion date of our house is July 31st, and then we will probably be able to move in a week after that. So I have a little over a month of day-dreaming before this dream becomes a reality. Time can't move any faster!!!  

This is what our house looked like a week ago when I met up with the building supervisor to go over the building plans and layout that we wanted. Since then, we were told that they put in all the insulation and will be doing the dry wall next!

  

I'm also dreaming about our baby.

-I can't wait to hold him, cuddle with him, and breathe in that sweet scent of a newborn. 

-I am excited to put our awesome new stroller to good use and go on lots of walks/runs with him! 

-I am soooooo excited for the holidays so we can experience those with him for the first time!

-In my dreams our baby has hair, and lots of it! So of course I will be styling his hair and dressing him in all sorts of adorable little man outfits all day long!

The only damper I've been feeling about this dream is that I will be a full time working mom.... That was never a part of the dream, and it bothers me a lot. Why did the economy have to crash? Why can't it be like the 1950's when Dads went to work and Moms stayed home with the kids and got together with the neighborhood ladies every Wednesday afternoon for the weekly card game? I envy our Grandparents and the simple lives they led. 

But then again, would I be willing to give up all of our vacations? Or how about all of our fun date nights, Sonic runs for their amazing Vanilla-CokeZero's, dinners out, pedicures, and shopping sprees (once I can actually fit into normal clothes again)? Or what about the house we are currently building? When I think about it that way, I remember why I work. Basically it's because I want it all and that kind of lifestyle takes $$$.  

 So basically I just need to be more patient. Come mid-July, our angel will be here and about two weeks after that our house will be finished. Then we can move in, set up the nursery, and I will finally have my kitchen back along with all the privacy, yoga, and stroller walks/runs I could ever ask for!

Not a bad dream :).